Imperfections

I've been having some issues with my self esteem lately. I've put on weight this year due to the lack of exercise and my arms and flabby as a result. I'm not saying that I'm fat,I'm just flabby.my stomach seems to bulge out all the time,being unable to fit into my fav shorts/jeans just makes me feel a whole lot worse.and you know what they say..."you are what you eat". So......from today onwards I'm gna control what I eat. Of course I'll not let myself suffer to the extend of not eating the whole day or something. I'll eat when I'm hungry and I'll just simply cut down on the portions of food I eat.

Also,I've been looking at the pictures which i recently took and yea my left eye has a more distinct double eyelid whereas my right eye is a single which makes me look sleepy. My face is toooooo long. I can't stand it and I wish my eyes were larger.I don't want ppl to keep telling me chun's eyes is small luh....it's just that she wears contacts. So what if I wear contacts right?more comments about my pupils being small makes me wna hold on to my contacts more. And because of such comments,i dare not to go outside without my contacts on.
I am really insecure about myself. I'd always wonder,how would my future boyfriend react to my total bare face? Chances of him running away would be 99%. And being a positive thinker I'll tell myself"don't worry,you'll find that 1%".

out to town with wanz,dm and jas yesterday and boy did i spend my $$$ on food.had two medium servings of yami yogurt,large best fries forever,mac ice cream and on top of that,i had a rather heavy lunch before.i'm really gna get fat soon if this lifestyle of mine continues.i've already broken the promise of exercising once every week which i had initial earnest to be kept.

and now,i can finish a whole packet of chips on my own.that's nothing to vaunt about ya know.besides,i've not gotten my pay yet.those 4 days of standing and promoting laptops from 10-9 has caused a lingering numbness on my two big toes.i'm in dire need for my pay now to start Christmas shopping,with a major fraction of it to be given to my parents.

shar and syuhrah are currently away on a vacation and i'm missing them loads.i wish for them to be safe.i can't wait for them to get back and share with us their gleeful experience.then,would we be able to slumber at each other's houses.